I remember writing my very first #SongForSoul around a year ago.. I quoted this song, but another verse: “seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing”. I was unsure where I’d end up – as I had just quit my job and my previous studies. I just KNEW that I didn’t want to continue doing what I was doing. I was in a place where I was unsure about the future with ideas and ambitions that were unfulfilled; a strong desire to live more in tune with who I was becoming.
Fast forward 1 year later, I’m using this same song, but in a different context. I’ve been through some shitty stuff over the past year, but the worst I went through was losing my sense of self whilst trying to get where I wanted to go. Perhaps it was the best thing that had happened to me, I don’t know, but I know that I missed this feeling. I missed being in tune with myself, my dreams, my ambitions, my ideas – and actually taking action on them. It took removing all the content I previously created and start over from scratch, but as I am creating again, I feel more and more in control and empowered.
Now I am telling myself to not lose myself (again) whilst following my ambitions, to stay true to myself, to not bend for what I don’t sustain, and to not compromise who I am for the sake of acceptance.
“Life is a waste of time if you are anything but Who You Are”. – Jessie J
Complete Lyrics
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf
No, no, no, no
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay
Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah
The more I try the less it’s working, yeah,
‘Cause everything inside me screams, no, no, no, no, yeah
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It’s okay not to be okay
Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart
But tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising
There’s nothing wrong with who you are
Like woo, just go, and leave me alone
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight
With a smile, that’s my home
That’s my home, no, no, no, no, no
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It’s okay not to be okay
Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising
Just be true to who you are, yeah, yeah, yeah